Homestay in Australia

Well it's been two months after I did my trip to Australia. I was thinking not to post anything about it cause it's just a long time ago. However, I'm gonna write about it cause it was such a nice time :)
I'm thinking how hard it is to describe my feeling during a trip! 
I did felt sooooo many things of course but when you think back, there is just a satisfied feeling.
Anyway I try to remember what I thought and felt during this amazing trip.

Living in a big city like Tokyo for whole my life, I really didn't know how food is delivered to us. Well I did know milk is from cows and there are farms in this world.
My host family was not a farmer but they brought me to farms and I learned a lot.
What gave me a strong impression is that 'free range eggs'
Maybe some people think 'are you stupid?'
Well I was haha
When I was in the U.K., of course I had to do a shopping. When I was choosing eggs, there were some expensive ones. I didn't have any clue of the difference. Now I know. 
Basically free range eggs come from this kind of situation.

Do you get what I mean? These hens can walk but there are chickens caged all the time. I'm not gonna go further about this issue but it was good to know the difference.

My host family have these hens so they can get fresh eggs everyday. It also fascinates me to get eggs directly from chickens not from a supermarket. 

Many people may think about kangaroos when they imagine of Australia. In the evening, when I was lucky, I could say hello to these friends at my host family's garden.

well technically they are wallabies not kangaroos but similar hehe

Every time I see them, I tried to pet them but they just hopped away as soon as I approached them. 

It was really nice to live feeling animals arounds me all the time. It reminds me of the fact we share this earth with all different kinds of animals. This might be nothing special for you but it just struck me since I normally lead so to speak 'a city life.' Oh it's just very difficult to put into words but the life there was really interesting for me. 

Now a farms stay in Australia is on my list. I'm thinking to do it when I get tired of fast paced Japanese life. 

Oh one thing has got in my bucket list but one thing has ticked in my list.

"Hammock!!"

I was really happy swinging in the middle of a beautiful garden looking at gorgeous blue sky especially after really stressing 7 months job hunting. 

I definitely would like to lead this kind of quiet and relaxing life within 10 years!!

As well as I've learned a lot of life itself, I study English a lot. 

One funny misunderstanding was discovered. I remember my English teacher back in my high school taught me that there was an Australian native language "Gedaimai"

I completely thought it was one Aboriginal language. Well it is apparently not.

It's just an Australian slang "G'day mate" Now it makes sense completely but I just feel embarrassed..... At least, now I know :)

I have visited Brisbane with my family before. Now I would like to explore the other side of Australia! 

How to Trust People

Sometimes I encounter a period when I cannot trust anyone. An idea that no one actually likes me occupies me. What is the meaning of friends, boy friends and those kinds of stuffs? Some people act as if they like me even though they actually hate me. Once I started to think about this, I just can't believe anyone and fall down to a very lonely world. 
So far I was saved by a very kind ex boyfriend and a friend and somehow I managed to get out of the never ending loneliness thinking. But maybe I should get over this by myself at this stage now. I just can't rely on others all the time. Well maybe I just wanna rely on someone permanently. That's why I have a stupid dream of marriage. I do know this is a really stupid idea but I do wanna believe a marriage 'forever love' haha
As many series of talks with my friend, I realise I instantly trust people. AND people can betray me easily. Well at this point, what I consider a betrayal might not one for others since everyone has a different value. This is the tricky point.... So I try not to trust people these days but now I just don't know who to trust and what to trust with. A women I admire said 'Trust what people do but not what people say' Well I think this is kinda true. All the time, I feel disappointed by trusting what others say. Basically people can say whatever they want to including whatever they are not actually thinking. They just say it because they know it would make me happy and it would make me shut up. All the time, I believed if a person does not like me, they will tell me so directly. Well no one wants to be 'a bad person' so they won't tell me so even though I ask it. But if you just tell me what you actually think, I don't have to expect anything. 
I simply want every single person to be honest with each other. Well i do know this world is not that easy. But it's just sad and tiring to keep playing 'the game' of thinking about others mind inside, behind the words.  I like you, I don't like you. That's it, isn't it?

Back from the U.K.

Today when I was having a quiet and relaxing evening, I realised my previous post is just strange. I accidentally posted a draft.... I just wanna say 'I'm back!' on this blog so this will be short as well.

Obviously when you're having a good time, time goes by soooooo fast. I can't believe i'm already in Japan. Soooooo sad. It is very sad even though I feel I should be here and I belong there, I can't just simply stay here thanks to the Visa problem. Well technically I can only if I have loads of money haha

Anyway when I had to think about my luggage, I just didn't have any idea why I brought so many things when I went to the U.K.. When I arrived at Heathrow airport, my suitcase was already seriously full.... Last week I bought two pairs of shoes (I'm crazy about shoe and blankets :p) even though I told myself 'Aya stay away from shoe shops!!!' Well it seems as if I've bought way too much things to put inside my suitcase. I had to send a packet back home... hahahaha Well there are so many things I wanted to get from the U.K. so I kinda imagined this would happen. I'll write about what I bought soon on this blog.
Well after an amazing summer holiday, it's time to be back to my real life....
Ganbare Aya chan!!!